Wake me up !

Wake me up !
I've been sleeping for long.
Away from the world,
I've been sleeping long.
In his arms that I fit in best
I've been sleeping.
For long.
Dwelled in fantasies, in love,
In the perfect life ;
With him of course !
Oh I've been sleeping long.
He spoke of love,
marriage and having babies,
I realise Alas !
I've been sleeping long.
Wake me up !
For now I've fooled myself
For long.
Wake me up!
I refuse to be fooled more.
I've been
For long.

Don't be a newspaper !

For quite some time I have been quarrelling with myself whether to share this post or not. But I think I should as it might be useful for some.
So this caboodle of feelings of hatred, love, passion, revenge and glominess has been with each of us at some point or the other.
And as even psychology explains it's always good for the benefit of mind to share these with people.
We kind of feel relaxed after sharing our thoughts with others. And often while sharing we don't realize whom we are sharing it with and that's where the plot begins. We are so so so lost in our own things that we missout on realising who the closed one's are. And speak up things in front of those who really don't care all they could do is feel sorry or get a topic to gossip about with the rest of friends.
Don't be a newspaper.
Just like we read all sorts of news in a newspaper and all we do is feel sorry for the flood or happy for the latest Dia mirza's wedding similar is the case with us people have nothing to do with us, our issues our lives. Than why why to be a newspaper ? And tell the world about our love, breakups, problems. 

Did you just breakup ? Or had a quarrel with your bf/gf ?
Oh, so you're heartbroken. Let's upload a picture on instagram or maybe a nice heartbroken quote would work well for a facebook status followed by a few messages by the "Sympathetic" people.
Now that's cool. You feel better. Right ?
It's over. Han. Relaxed.

No my love no.
That status was read by some old school friends or some college friends with whom you really don't have good terms.  And do you know they are meeting over lunch today. A topic about the social media is surely to take place and maybe your facebook status might come as a topic of discussion.
"Did you read her status ?"
"Oh my god has she lost it ?"
"She's a mad woman."
They might have liked your status or might have even commented "things will be ok don't worry".
But see what are they saying. This happens. Shit happens. But when you've the choice of not being exploited by anyone than why do you choose to be a newspaper?
You have the most closed one's right next to you. Your mom, your dad your sister, brother. They will listen to you, help you, explain it to you, and afterwards will even ask you about how's it going.
So please don't be a newspaper. Own a journal instead. Pen it down. Ask yourself. Give yourself time. Sit back and relax. Seek refuge from the All mighty. Think and act.
But,
DON'T BE A NEWSPAPER !
It's useless.

Stay blessed x

Because my heart still beats ♡

Because my heart still beats.
The wounds that you gave still ache.
The dreams that we shared still appear.
The smile I use to smile never came again. The endless fights are no more.
Those eyes that stared me never saw me again.
We had endless problems, but I loved you.
You have nothing more to do with me.
And I’ve poisoned you.
The love that we had can  come again. You don’t have to worry about me anymore.
never
I HAVE UNDERSTOOD.

I am not the same princess anymore.
I cannot fix everything.
No one’s going to help me.
I’m on my own.
I have to figure out how things work here.
And I will.
And when I do I’ll tell the world.
I’ll get out of the hellhole.
I WILL.
Because my heart still beats.

I have to write.

I don't write everyday. It's only after a few days of not writing that I completely freak out and it's only after some sad hours and enumerous arguments with people in my life. I hate them, hurt them and then spend couple of hours apologizing with them for I have made them all upset because of my stupidity. And it is only after all this shit
That I begin something. This time being easy because I am not thinking much and only talking about my present situation and I am not on an exquisite wandering.
I love to write. To pen down every inch of feeling that I experience every moment. Oh no i am not that good of a writer but yes i know i am not that bad either. So I pen down some unrealistic things that can never happen to me but I, I still for my own nerves to calm down and for my heart to take a chill and be happy for a while I write.
I write about my past,not much- it's gone.
I write about my present because it feels like I've handed over the presurre to someone else or shared my happiness with some other soul.
I write I write about my future because I have hope in every new day. My hope lies in tomorrow for today has not given me much. Maybe tomorrow is the day.
So I go forth into the future boldly. Taking steps that might kiss me or even fuck me at times. But it's ok its life.
And then wait a minute something just happened which is more important than this piece of writing. 
And before this blog begins to sound like that of a sadist girl who is lonely, lost, sad, depressed, in a one sided love.
And since I REFUSE TO BE ONE OF A KIND.
I bid good bye x

And yea it's life I take a bold step and move again. And you know how it goes on from here ;)

A little prayer.

Hey
I am here in KSA. Sitting in front of the holiest place on the earth THE KA'BAH for Allah has bestowed me with this golden opportunity.
I don't know you, Or you might not know me or you may have forgotten me. Anyways I am human, you are a human and so I pray for you, for your family, for your health & wealth. May Allah bless you with akal & shakal and dhan & daulat. ;)
To all those who are reading this I love you all and with all sincerity and love I pray for your well being. May Allah SWT also give you this opportunity to visit this sacred land.
May he fulfill all our desires and dreams. Protect us from all the evil and show us the right direction in every field.
O Allah we are indeed the most sin doers please forgive us for all our sins that we've been doing jaane ya anjaane. We are in the end your children o lord please listen to us, to our forgiveness, to our needs. For there's no one besides you who can help us. We are the wrong doers please guide us, protect us and love us.
Ameen
Stay blessed x

THE SACRED LAND !

All praises are solely for Allah the most supreme. It is HE who has bestowed me the worthless and sinful servant the taufeeq to perform UMRAH and HAJJ.
Since every human is prone to sins and faults, I will beg Allah most high to pardon my faults and errors. I would also request all my beloved family and friends to forgive me if ever intentionally or unintentionally I've  harmed them by any physical or verbal means.
Since everyone is not aware of Islam and its preachings, following is my little effort to explain it in the simplistic way possible. The importance and significance of this sacred land are so numerous that they cannot be covered in this piece of writing.

It is a fervent desire of every muslim, irrespective of color, nationality, wealth or status to visit THE SACRED LAND, where religious devotions could be fulfilled. The land where one faces not less than five times daily; the land where the KA'BAH, the sacred house of Allah and the qiblah is situated.
A muslim craves and yearns to visit this blessed land, the land where one could have the opportunity of witnessing the birth place of Allah's beloved NABI MUHAMMAD SALLALLAHU ALAYHI WASALLAM, who is the noblest and last of prophets, witnessing the land where he lived and rests in peace; the land whereon the archangel Jibreel Alayhis salaam and all the prophets of Allah treaded.

HAJJ
It is a unique form of ibaadah(worship). It embraces all types of devotions in some way or the other. Hajj does not only mean the carrying out of various devotions but also serves as a training centre where one educates and trains one's self spiritually as well as morally.  It has many advantages, such as gaining Allah's pleasure, which is the height of ambition.
During the days of Hajj a pilgrim devotes one's self completely towards Allah the most supreme.  One leaves behind one's beloved children, relatives, friends, home, luxury, comfort, country and country men.
One also cleanses one's self spiritually by abstaining from sins, vices, carnal and brutal desires. During the journey one also learns to be patient, tolerant and forgiving. At the same time one learns to discriminate between virtue and evil; between piety and impiety.
Above all, the entire stay is spent in an Islamic environment, where one learns practically how to behave and live as a sincere devout and upright Muslim.
The ULAMA of the ummah have stated : ' An individual who performs hajj does not remain the same person thereafter. One will either witness a spiritual and moral improvement, or a noticeable deterioration in one's self, spiritually as well as morally. '

The currency of every country is different. Similarly, is the currency of AA-KHIRAH which is pious deeds and not Dollars, Pounds, Francs, Yens and Rupees. Whilst we are alive let us accumulate this currency too the wealth of AA-KHIRAH. Bear in mind that no man has returned to the surface of this earth to accumulate wealth after his demise. The beauty of this currency is that it never depriciates, as does the currencies of this worthless world.

LABBAYK ALLAHUMMA LABBAYK.
LABBAYKA LAA SHARIKA LAKA LABBAYK.
INNAL HAMDA WAN NI MATA LAKA WAL MULK. LAA SHAREEKA LAK.
Here I am at your service O Allah. I am present. I am present, you have no partner.  I am present. All praise and graciousness as well as the entire universe is yours. You have no partner.

Please pray for my safe journey and may Allah SWT accepts my prayers and qubool my HAJJ.
AAMEEN

( Source: The holy book Quran, sayings by Mufti Abdullah Bin Abdur Rahman )

★★Twenty facts ★★

Ya Allah ! I am loving these challenges. Thankyou Simran Sharma for bringing this my way. So, Simran nominated me to list 20 facts about myself which I think are really less - eee yah !
Okay, so :
1. I love my Abbu to the cooore.
2. I am strong but only from outside
3. I love babies. (I've one with me right now too)
4. I can't see them crying.
5. I wish to travel the whole world.
6. I am obsessed with bags and diamonds.
7. I wish to fly.
8. The smell of petrol. SubhanAllah !
9. I love attention ( eee )
10. I consider myself as the most talented in my clan ( haha beat that )
11. I go to citywalk mostly to use the washroom ( college one's suck )
12. I am in love with my camera these days.
13. Every 3 months I want a new phone.
14. I wanted to be a dancer too -.-
15. I love my books. I am a bibliophile.
16. I wish that one day someone throw me into a pool of chocolate.
17. I want a home on the clouds.
18. I want to live a happy married life (sorry han.. but stating truth)
19. I don't really eat a lot of food but when it comes to junk the size of my stomach usually expands.
20. I love such games. I have many more facts can I state some more..? hahah