From the depth of my heart.

While people move on towards life, in a world of sunshine,  I lay alone in the dark shadows of my own world. I lay beneath the moon, in the dark & the emptiness off my stomach is making me sick again. An endless day of bruises and tears. Life's getting harder with no one to share the plate. I feel abandoned.
PHONE ? Where's my phone ?
Just too sick, too tired, too crazy and too willing to die.
Reaching out to my phone but no texts no calls. People do have their own businesses to deal with right ? Yes.
Why would anyone care about my whereabouts ?
Lying in bed in tears wishing someone someday MIGHT care.
With nausea overpowering me again I bid goodbye.

x

Pray for Gaza !

You all must be aware of all the horrific things happening in palestine.
THIS IS GENOCIDE.
"The people of Palestine are chosen by Allah SWT for Jannatul Firdaus. Allah SWT is calling them back to Him in the blessed month of Ramadhan, because He loves them more than the love a mother has for a child. Allah SWT loves His servant even more than that. Although you see them suffering, its only temporary, they will inherit Jannah FOREVER, what an inheritance! and the murderers, Although you see them rejoicing, they will inherit Jahannam FOREVER...that is the worst inheritance! Can the temporary suffering in this dunya compare to the eternal rejoice in Jannah? We are created into this world only to be tested on our faith, so have faith that Allah SWT is Just and Most Merciful. #PrayForGaza"

THEY MIGHT WIN THE BATTLE BUT THEY WILL NEVER WIN THE WAR.

Lights Camera Action !

Hello Bees,
It's a new start,  a new dream, a new love and a completely new world.
PHOTOGRAPHY presently for me is longing which with the passage of time slowly and steadily is coming true. All that I ever wanted has come to me in one way the other and now here it is MY DSLR to fulfill yet another Shauk of mine that is to click.
You know I always had a picture of me in my mind holding a camera standing amidst the summer crops and gusty wind blowing away my long locks of hair & I, I am completely lost in the love of photography clicking pictures of things I don't really no about. But the beauty is insisting to get clicked or maybe I am clicking because the allmighty wants me to seize his creation.
Oh yes, the name QUEEN BEE the story behind this name is very straight forward just like the bees I am going to buzz around and click pictures not just pictures but yes some amazing pictures. Do Stay in touch to see the new world through my new eyes.
Ah ! That feeling when your dreams are fulfilling cannot be explained well in words or say maybe the writer in me is not so illustrious.
As Mr. Lewis Hine said "If I could tell the story in words, I wouldn't need to lug around a camera."
Similar is the case with me.
I've attached a picture of me holding my camera- the new found love.
The future posts will be in regard with the pictures I click.

Happy watching to you !
Happy clicking to me !

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Ek sawaal.

Abhi tak sawal ye tha 'Aage kya karna hy ?' Lekin aaj jaise kuch naya suna. Wo sawaal jo maine kabhi apne aap se bhi nahi kia 'Aage saath chalna bhi hy ya nae ?'
Zindagi aksar hume ek aise mor par la khara karti hy jaha raahe dhoondhna mushkil ho jata hai. Galiya alag lagne lagti hai mushkilat barr jaate hy.
Naye sawaal uth khare hote hy jinke jawaab hume haasil nae.
Ye zindagi bhi ajeeb khel khelti hy kabhi phoolo ki chadar ura ti hy tw kabhi kaato pe sulaaati hy. Na jaane khuda ko ye khel itna pasand kyu hy ?
Ye mushkile kahi ka nahi chhorti ek bhoot ki tarah sir pe sawaar ho jaati hy.
Kuch cheeze ek aisa niwala ban jaati hy jise na tw thooka jaata hy or na hi nigla.
Ae khuda ye kaisi bari mushkil hy jaha samajh nae aata ki aakhir humari ghalti kya hy ? Ki Ye saza k peeche masla kya hy ?

Ae Allah hume himmat de in raasto se nikalne ki in gehraio se oocha uthne ki. Warna najane ye lehren hume kis sheher le jayengi. Humari madad kar, hume sahi raasta dikha, or agar jaane anjaane humse koi ghalti ho gayi ho tw hume maaf kar. Lekin yu na sata.
Ye dil bara hi nazuk hy agar toot gya tw bikhar jaayega or agar bikhar gaya tw phir jud nahi payega.
Ya Rab madad !

What did I do wrong?

What did I do wrong ? Loved you for every single second of the day. Waited, while you were busy somewhere or the other. Be there right next to you when you needed me. I'd rather be with you than partying with friends. Talk to you every night just to make sure we are doing well. Bring down my ego, pride everything just to make our relationship work. Every single tear that drops down is for you. What did I do wrong? Why do you have to rip my heart apart all the time while what I do is just for you, to make you happy.

It sucks you know when everything's going fine and suddenly crashes again and the worst part is that I really don't want to put it back together but I have to.
Because Iloveyoumore.

I miss you best friend.

There's always someone in life who leaves a mark, a mark at our hearts. Sooner or later they keep crossing our minds. And today I miss her yes I miss my best friend who is obviously not that close to me as we were once. So this one's for you baby. I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU SO MUCH.
So many things in life but still time to think of you and miss you. I really miss the silly arguments and tonts.
Well people let me tell you I was called 'Ms.PHD' only because I always corrected her english like a teacher. Which obviously doesn't make much sense here but actually the point is that I really miss her and my brain is suddenly flooded with our memories the time we spent together the fights we used to have those outings on scooty and foood. I was also called a BHOOKAD because the moment I saw her I was like "bhook lagri hai bohat zor se lag rahi hai" ahaha lovely days.
But there comes a point in everyone's life you have to let go of something or the other and now that she has gone I miss her.
Oh I MISS YOU !